Some days I don’t feel like praying. There I said it.
And maybe my saying this out loud makes you feel less ashamed about the times you feel the same way.
And there are many reasons why I might feel this way. Maybe I have sin in my life I don’t want to deal with, maybe I’m having a bad day and I’m angry, maybe I’m busy and I just don’t want to take the time.
Some days my kids don’t want to talk to me either. I go to them, but the door is locked or they are locked up emotionally. So what do I do then? I wait, nearby, letting them know I love them and will be there when they are ready to talk again. I want them to know that I see their tears.
What does God do when I’m the locked up kid? He lets me know He will wait, that He loves me, and that He is nearby.
“The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.” (Psalm 145:18)
“You have kept count of my wanderings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?” (Psalm 56:8)
We each are given an average of 27,768 days to live. So I do need to keep this in perspective and give myself grace. Certainly God does. So maybe in between the roughly 25-30,000 days that we run to God, we lock ourselves in our room a few times. So God waits on us. Think of that! The God of the universe waits on us to unlock the door and return to Him, and we are once again reminded that He never left our side, and that nothing can separate us from the love of God.